This project of writing out my autobiography is taking a lot longer even to get started than I thought it would. I had intended to post something months ago, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it, even after I had written a considerable amount of material. The writing process itself took a long time, because I had to re-live the experiences that I was writing about, and some of these have been extremely painful.
There are several things holding me back from posting what I have written, the primary one being that I suffer from a pathological perfectionism — I cannot bear to let anyone else know about a project that I’m working on until after it has been completed, for fear that someone would deliberately act to sabotage and derail my efforts. I was not always like this; in fact, once upon a time, I used to drag everyone I knew, and even many people whom I didn’t, into anything that I was involved with. The reason for this drastic change in my behaviour will become crystal clear as I tell my story… » [Expand post] [Permalink]